big fish or the little ones.
the freak master-in-chief or the fake monster-in-chief.
an amazing grace or a sorry disgrace.
the beginning or the beginning of the end.
a solid argument or an emotional opinion.
debt consolidation loan or financial destination.
violence with a weapon or violence without a weapon.
the perfection of illusion or the illusion of perfection.
we have no trust in the government or we found no truth in the nonsense.
being or becoming.
a tolerance or an instrument.
your shadow of silence is my surviving science.
情緒泛濫，打電話查看銀行戶口的存款數字，半年積存下來的儲蓄，因為月初交了最後一期的學費，早前又買了數碼相機送給姊姊作結婚禮物，已經不足夠買機票作長期旅行，只好舉行一次消費祭祀儀式。自知不是好習慣，不奢求什麼別的救贖，只想平衡心理。星期天的黃昏時間，在旺角遊走近三小時，終於買了五本沒有太多時間看、每天能夠翻幾頁已算幸運的書，選了三片電影 DVD，然後再一口氣買了四新五舊共九張 CD 唱片；買買敗敗，盡情花費破財，正式展開一窮二白的生活。
Saturday Looks Good To Me – “I Would Find It So Beautiful”
星期五，本以為心情可以放鬆一點，卻又收到這封電郵：
Run Run Shaw Library
City University of Hong Kong
83 Tat Chee Avenue
Kowloon Tong, KLN, Hong KongFirst Overdue – Circulation. The following book(s) is/are overdue. Please return it/them immediately. If the book(s) is/are returned within 3 days after the due date(s), overdue fines will not be charged.
To renew overdue book(s), please bring it/them to the Circulation Counter in person.
Fine rate (per book per calendar day):1-10 days: $1; 11-30 days: $2.
我承認，有時候自己粗心大意，沒時刻注意參考書的歸還日期。是自己的錯，總沒法推卸責任。
可是，你們現在已經悄悄修改了圖書館的借閱政策，不容許讀者在十天八天前「過早」替借出的書籍續期，每次也在借閱限期後才補發電郵通知，給你們提醒後，過了期的書藉卻又不可以像以往一樣在網上續借，隔幾星期就要我抱著十多公斤的磚頭書來回奔走；是我錯，總給你們逮個正著。但你們其實是要捕我逮我還是要幫助我提醒我呢，我搞不清楚。
記錄顯示，沒有別的讀者排隊輪候我借出的參考書，不方便讀者，除了增加行政效率，你們究竟有什麼得益。設立圖書館的本旨又是什麼。要不要也請人大大人各路英雄好漢替我們釋法呢？
Halou – “Wiser”
sweet and sexy. simple and beautiful. halou is always on my list.